April 2 2013 I Lost A peace Of My Heart"

On April 2 2013 Just A little Over A week Ago I found My grandmother in her home dead, and it wasnt the worst feeling i have ever had to experience in my life,cause the sad part was i got talk to her for almost 40 minutes, a couple of nights before her death,and we talked like we always have about everything and i still cant believe she is gone,it isnt like she was sick she was active,on the go,and just a great respected lady who i loved,and was like a 2nd mom to me,And now this saturday i have to say my final goodbye to her,and that in itself is going to be hard as well, i know people have told me to cherish the good times,and i eventually i will, but right now my heart hurts,because i have lost not just and icon in my family,but my idol a woman who i patterned my life around,she taught to enjoy life,travel,have fun,not just sit around and do nothing,she would have superbowl parties when i was growing up, she would take me to the racetrack at drc,when i was old enough and we spent our saturdays watching the horses run,and having lunch that was our time,and she loved me and my brothers like we were her sons, and when i gave her the first and only great granddaughter she was so proud,and she loved my daughter just as she loved me and my brothers, mothers day wont be the same this year cause every mothers day me and my mom and grandma,and brothers would go out to dinner and spend time,and now she is gone,and christmas eve this year will be the hardest saddest christmas eve ever because it has been a tradition in my family on christmas eve since 1982 of going to my grandmothers house for dinner,opening gifts,and spending time with family,and last year i am so proud that i hosted the first christmas eve dinner at my house cause my grand mother was tired and i mad her proud,so i know i have the memories,but i am truly going to miss you dora,and people will say dora,yes thats what we called my grandmother by her first name and thats the way she liked it,and i wouldnt have it any other way,so i finally got the strength to write about my dora,and let her know that i love her,i miss her,and life wont be the same with out her,yes i wil move on but you will never be forgotten cause you was the best grandmother i could have ever imagined i love you from your grandson Dion.